w/ the transition period between teenage~hood & adult~ho0d.
everything has sort of fallen into place in this chaotic/dreamy state since i graduated high school, last june. & i’m very gr8ful for everything that’s been placed on my plate. but it definitely just hit me vury recently how real this all is… for awhile i was thinking school first & then interning on the side. but soon realized i was way more focused on interning… & then it seemed out of thin air, I became a half-adult. a full time personal assistant/styling assistant ␦☹☺︎☹☺︎?
And I freaked out for a solid two weeks:
Was I ready?
Do I even want this?
How am I almost 19?
What the fuck is ever going on?
Am I even capable of being responsible for sum1 when I can’t even remember to take out the trash once a week?!
99.9% of my friends/peers r in college not dealing w/ this shit for another 4-5 yrs. so it’s pretty much un~relatable territory. they don’t have to do shiiiit. it’s times like this that i dream of indio valley or turnt tuesdays.
its all guud now
all i know is that i’ll make it thru as will the rest of us
3 months from now (june); i’ll have the basics mastered 4sure